pain is the staff of life


Posted in Uncategorized by ruthanzo on March 27, 2009

March 2009.

Naan suffers from chronic insomnia and has relied on sleep meds for over a decade, alternating between t-pam and z-clone, but she yearns for an earlier time when reading just a few lumpy sentences from a poorly written book would knock her out for 8 hours. “I’m always on the lookout for really boring books. Boring is key, unlocking as it might the door to the Land of Sleep.” By lucky coincidence, the childhood home is full of such tomes. Like this one: The Illustrated Guide to Ancient Monuments of South Wales and Monmouthshire, volume 4, 1955. Nice and dry, with a dusty nose, delicious with Benylin. So far so good. ugh..there were too many dates and I get the bronze and iron ages mixed up, plus the pic of the ruins of Llanthony Priory reminded me too much of the WTC after 9/11, that nightmare. Last night I discovered Arthritis and Vermont Folk Medicine by Dr. D.C. Jarvis, M.D. It’s set in a frugal faded font on brittle yellow newsprint. What a dullard he is with his apple-cider vinegar and honey potions that he recommends be kept by the bed. My late mother-in-law used to keep a flask of Seagrams 83 under her pillow. That was her ticket to Dreamland/Neverland. Doc Jarvis, M.D. likens the body to soil. If you keep it healthy bad things won’t grow in it. I wish I’d read this when I was 20 instead of The Doors of Perception. All Doc Jarvis succeeded in doing was sewing the seeds of guilt. I had no alternative but to pop a pill. This post was written long before Michael Jackson’s untimely death and it sounds flippant. Addiction is a drag.

-One year later.. I can now recommend something called mirtazapine o/d? Hardly ever take any narcotics any more. Also, Millenium Trilogy good for inducing sleep.


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  1. Campbell said, on July 7, 2010 at 11:06 pm

    It’s the nightmares that get me. they now suffuse my day and night

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